Thursday, 16 January 2014

SO SORRY!!!................:( (WARNING long post, get a coffee.......or tea)

I know a lot of people will read this and say " didn't need to apologise!" but I truly feel the need to. You see I have been M.I.A yet got in the way, like it does.........and I know this is ONLY a blog........but its MY blog and I made a promise to myself, if not to you all, that I would at least post once or twice a week!! People who know me on Facebook primarily, will also notice that I have hardly been on there either, I have nearly 4000 friends on there, obviously some are my family and some are close friends that I have met in person and online, 1 in particular but I won't embarrass her here, she is my closest friend, but in the main I bump shoulders with most of my 'FB friends' a lot, and yes, I mean all of them! we pass, like ships in the night around all different areas of facebook, because I am not just a crafter, I am disabled, so I see people on medical pages! I shop, so I meet friends on shop pages and groups, I obviously craft so I am on countless craft groups and run a couple myself and admin on a couple too, but I am also (and have been as long as I can remember)  a spiritual medium, I have always been able to see spirits, talk to them and receive messages from angels..........and since 33yrs old am a Reiki Master too.....NO!!! Don't run not mad, just sick of hiding who I really am.......for years I was ridiculed if someone found out, even by a close family member, but hey, this is me, I was born with it, just like some of you was born with freckles, or blue eyes, or ginger hair, and all different other things that I don't care to mention cause I don't judge you........the only time I have ever judged people in my life is when they hurt me or someone I love or hold dear.
So, why now? I felt that this was just a craft blog, up till, now! changed, life got in the way and I still wanted to post but had no card to show, no video to post the link to cause I haven't made any of them for you all either (yet another promise broken, and I don't normally break promises) so I thought what the heck, go back to why blogs were invented in the first place, they were here as a diary, and although I am not going to pour out my inner darkest secrets...........sorry! party pooper..........nah!! I haven't got any really.........i'm boring but very funny, or so I have been told! I am going to start posting about how I feel, or what I have done or not done! LOL.......and if you don't wanna read about me or my antics, that's fine, come back when I post a card, or video! that's your perogative and I respect you regardless, for being a follower and for being my friends.
And to make my life that bit busier, I offered angel tarot card readings, using my angel tarot and my spiritual hotline lol, all free of course and im booked up till Easter....all online through my group on Facebook! each one takes 3 hours from start to finish and your reading is typed out for you into a document for you to keep.
Anyway, life! yes.......firstly, I only did a bit of it but we had to pack up our house 2 weeks before Christmas as we were moving house in two parts, 8th Dec and 29th Dec, cause i wasn't well enough to do it all in one as I am severely disabled, and my poor hubby, John had to do it all, and he has arthritic knees, so we do everything very slow but we make do & we get there. Then we moved house and it was Christmas and I fell very ill, I have been to the doctors and have to be tested for bowel cancer at the beginning of February, the appointment has already been made, but it is also suspected that I may have diabetes as well, so you can imagine the tests, and surgical procedures I am facing and have already had, but on top of all this my house is still full of boxes and we barely have enough money to rub together and then all the hassle that comes with moving house, changing utilities, addresses, making sure everyone gets paid and you are above board with your tv licence and what not, its all stress, so nothing is helping, except for one thing, and its always there, my need, desperate need, to craft!
 I talk to my spirit guides and my angels and God every night, they are always around me, but craft is what takes my mind off EVERYTHING!!! its the thing that has for the last 10 years always got me through, and its all because of one man, the man I call my 'angel on earth' (he hates that cause he feels he can't live up to perfect) but he's perfect to me, my husband John........of course we do each other's heads in now and again as we are together 24/7 as he is my full time carer, when I let him, I'm very much independent still!! to his detriment, but, he bought me my first little crafty stash, it was a set from Argos and a tiny set of plastic drawers with all bits and pieces in, off a woman on Ebay, cause he knew I needed something to take my mind off the constant pain I am in, you see I have Osteo & Rheumatoid Arthritis' throughout my whole body even in my eyes!  M.E, Fibromyalgia, Lordosis (severe curvature of the lumbar spine)
 3 prolapsed lumbar discs, 2 herniated sacral discs, sacriolitis (crumbling of the sacrum and pelvic region) 2 prolapsed discs in my neck, clinical depression, survived Thyroid cancer 11yrs ago (so I had to have a left thyroidectomy) and we have last year found out through an MRI that not only is my sacrum crumbling but the rest of my spine and scapulas are crumbling too. I haven't told you all this to gain sympathy cause I don't want it......I have said this to bring to attention the fact that no matter what life chucks at you (and believe me there is more horrors I have gone through that I would rather not say on here) YOU CAN GET THROUGH IT!!! people are around, even when you think you are totally alone, you aren't. and when you are! and you are crying, pleading for someone to be there, your angels are and they ARE listening, so ask for what you want, ask for help, ask and ye shall be given! you don't have to believe me to try it in the privacy of your own home in your own space with no one listening but you and your angels, try it and can get through anything.......and SMILE and LAUGH that's another one of my 'pearls of wisdom' I have a GSOH & use it constantly, my husband fell In love with my SOH before he even saw me or met me, so just remember to smile.
So, back to the craft........ Oh My Goodness, when my John bought me those craft things, he created a monster!!! hahaha.........I have so much stash now that I need two large rooms but will have to be content with one end of my large bedroom (so glad ive finally got a biggish bedroom) when we set my craft studio area up, I will be the happiest woman alive, no matter what else is going on in my life I know that I can forget about it for just those few minutes or few hours, i'm stamping, or painting, or sewing, or whatever! I have for some time now, called it 'My Therapy' and it truly is.
So.....please accept my apology for not being here and even if I have nothing crafty to say, I PROMISE to try and get on here at least once a week and a video every week or fortnight when I get one of my 3 desks set up
Thanks guys,
V x