As most of you know, i lost my big brother Billy (aged 50) a few weeks ago, and due to financial redtape with accounts etc, we weren't able to lay him to rest, so the last few weeks, nearly 6 in all, we have been living in a sorrow induced limbo bubble, kind of , that's how it feels! Well the day is nearly here and we are to travel a few hundred miles round trip for his funeral tomorrow, (Wed) setting off at 5am. I am dreading it but obviously know it's got to be done, and sort of allow us breathing space afterwards to slowly get on with our lives without him and learn to cope, but when you have waited nigh on 6weeks to lay your loved one to rest, it seems nothing can be done until that has taken place, i personally akin it to that feeling you get inbetween Christmas and New Year where its nothingness really and you're waiting for New Year's so everything seems brand new and fresh and thats when you will start to do things again. For me, i was going to be taking my driving theory test and my practical driving test, but i didn't want to have to revise books and DVD's for that until this was done, so everything has been "Yeah, i'll do it after we've laid Bill to rest" I don't know if i'm explaining myself properly, but i hope you know what i mean.
Therefore another promise is to start blogging and crafting properly again when i get over the funeral and the journey, as my disabilities don't do well on long journey's. I am still in a lot of pain after travelling down there, and sitting for 3 days and travelling back again when my dear brother was on the life support, so i know it will be weeks before i can even begin to feel human again, but as i am on DT's and love my crafting as a ways of escape from my pain and now my mourning, it won't be long before i am back. I know i haven't got a lot of followers but the ones i have got check in on me regularly and my many good friends on Facebook, i also have people who aren't followers but still check in on my blog, so for those that are interested, in the words of Arnie, i will be back! Hugs and Blessings to you all and we'll catch up real soon, again, sorry for being Missing In Action!! xxVick